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The ‘Use-it-up’ Project (35) – September Edition

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Also backdating this just slightly to make myself feel better. Had planned to post this couple of days after my last entry but life got in the way.

Work is super crazy and stressful these days :( Keeping fingers crossed that 2015 will be better!


1) The Body Shop – Aloe Calming Toner 

why did I buy it? wanted to get something gentle as my night toner.

first impressions? it is rather soothing and preps my skin well for night time moisturizing.

upon finishing? I ended up using this for both morning and night after my Tea Tree toner ran out, since I didn’t have the chance to purchase this. Overall, it does its job as a toner well but nothing exceptional for me to repurchase it again.

2)The Body Shop – Tea Tree Skin Clearing Toner 

why did I buy it? had repurchased this many times as I felt it is a good toner for morning as I don’t use a cleanser in the morning.

first impressions? still loving it.

upon finishing? I didn’t have time to go get a new one but will do so sometime soon probably. Not in a rush since other toners have seem to worked too! :)

3) Simple – Cleansing Facial Wipes 

why did I buy it? my favorite wipes so far in terms of value!

first impressions? really quick and removes makeup fairly well.

upon finishing? have a few packs as back up already. I do enjoy other wipes too, like This Works and Burt’s Bees but this is the easiest to get for me and cost-effective too.

4) Tony Moly Petite Bunny Gloss Bar 

why did I buy it? got this when I was in Korea few years back because it’s cheap haha.

first impressions? super easy to use since it is a tinted balm. love it for days when I go makeup free but want a little color on my lips.

upon finishing? I do enjoy it but the color is probably not the best. prefer something slightly coral. Don’t mind repurchasing if I go back to Korea because the packaging is so cute but I actually do like the Etude House ones a little better!

5) Kate Gel Liner 

why did I buy it? during a period of time when I was crazy over gel liner. Now I am all for pencil liners!

first impressions? rather difficult to line due to its consistency.

upon finishing? I still have quite a bit left as it is not one of my favorite gel liners but I am past that phase now so I have decided to chuck this out since it’s old!

6) Maybelline Gel Liner in Brown 

why did I buy it? this is not my first as I did enjoy using it. brown is for days when I want a softer look.

first impressions? Love it as it stays on rather well and is easy to use. color is pretty too as it is a dark brown rather than light brown which will end up looking weird with my dark colored pupils.

upon finishing? didn’t finish this as well, but almost done! chucking this out because I won’t be reaching for it again and it’s old :)

7) Clean and Clear Acne Clearing Gel 

why did I buy it? for days when an annoying pimple pops out on my face.

first impressions? it does work pretty well, my pimples do go away faster if I use this compared to letting it heal on its own.

upon finishing? it took me a long time to finish this tiny tube because I don’t have pimples often #humblebrag haha anyway it is quite good so I definitely wouldn’t mind repurchasing in future. But I hope I don’t have too!

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October 1, 2014 at 8:42 AM

The ‘Use-it-up’ Project (34) – August Edition

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I didn’t mean to disappear for over a month. Thing just happened, work is crazy. Every time I tried to update, I just got tired and prefer to scroll through my IG feed instead. And baby T is now down with HFMD. Maybe more on that in a separate blogpost.

So I am going to back date this post to make myself feel better haha.

Rather boring mix of products this time round but any-oh-how, let’s do this.


1) Banyan Tree – Hair Shampoo in Thai Chamanard 

why did I buy it? fell in love with the scent when I stayed at Banyan Tree Bangkok so I decided to get this at their shop.

first impressions? Love it as I felt it cleanses my hair pretty well.

upon finishing? although it is a good product, but I am not sure if I will repurchase because I am on the hunt for better shampoos. Also, it is difficult to get my hands on it!

2) Air Freshner in Jasmine

why did I buy it? because this is one of my favorite scents! a lot of my friends dislike it though.

first impressions? love it, just a simple clean jasmine scent.

upon finishing? I have a tiny bit left but I can’t be bothered finished using it as I have a lot of air fresheners at home. Felt that the product itself is just ok, since the scent doesn’t linger on too long. Also on a personal note, I have grown to prefer more complex scents these days although I am sure I will go back to simple scents in future haha.

3) Sephora – Daily Makeup Brush Cleaner

why did I buy it? use this as a quick sanitizer before makeup for used brushes.

first impressions? it is quick and easy so I really love it.

upon finishing? I have repurchased this before and will keep on doing it unless I see something else worth trying.

4) Bath&Body Works – Pocket Bac in Eucalyptus Mint

why did I buy it? super handy to have this everywhere around the house and in my bag!

first impressions? love it that’s why I keep repurchasing it. Love this scent as well.

upon finishing? I will continue to get more whenever I order from Bath&Body Works. Going through these so quickly these days because of baby T.

5) Majolica Majorca– Perfect Automatic Liner in GD802

why did I buy it? there was a good deal at Watsons! Although I can’t remember how much I got it for. Probably 20% off?

first impressions? too liquid-y and it is difficult for me to control the amount I want.

upon finishing? as I was using the Dollywink Liquid Liner before this, it took me some time to get used to it but I finally figured out that two clicks is all I need. The plus side of this liner is that it is rather easy to remove. However it dried up while I was on maternity leave. Well, I was almost done with it and ready to move on to a new liner anyway so no harm there.

6) Skinfood – Pencil Liner 

why did I buy it? remember a few years back when glittery white liner on your lower waterline is all the rage? I got this for that hahaha ;)

first impressions? love it because it gives the effect that I want.

upon finishing? as the time goes by and the trend fades, I stopped using it. Also because it is difficult to remove, somehow when I thought I had finished removing it, I move and see a glitter speck still on my eye FML. This is also quite old so I might as well chuck it out.

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September 1, 2014 at 11:23 AM

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Back to work!

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Started work 2 weeks ago on 4 Aug and sent baby T for her first day of infant care on 1 Aug which is a Friday.

Her first day was uneventful, albeit the fact that they actually gave her some other baby’s EBM because there were 2 new babies on that day wtf. Don’t know whether to be happy that she accidentally got an extra bottle of breastmilk or freak out. Anyway, the teacher said that she didn’t fuss while drinking which is expected because she is ok with BM or formula, and even the oral Rotavirus vaccine hahaha.

And on Monday when we brought her back, she was so tired that she actually slept through the night (usually she still has to wake up for 1 night feed). She also started coughing and it soon developed into a phlegmy cough along with a runny nose that we brought her to the PD on Wednesday. After bringing her to the PD, she started pooping even more often (after every feed) zzz. I think this is the first time I have seen her being so listless so we decided to keep her home on Thursday since T was around and my mom could come over in the afternoon to help. Even then, she slept a lot and even fell asleep by herself while T took his morning shower. Friday I worked from home and thankfully we had a long weekend since Saturday is National Day so she rested for 5 days at home.

By then, she has slowly recovered so we sent her back on Tuesday. Actually is because we had no choice since both of us had to work. And Thursday morning T flew off (morning flight at 7am!) so I had to handle baby T all by myself for 2 nights. Thank God it is a very short trip this time round! T opt for ungodly hours just so he could minimize the time away from home J He is super worried because I always have a ton of things to carry, i.e. my bag, pump, baby T’s school bag and of course the baby who is already a hefty 7.3kg! He even casually mentioned to my mom that he is worried that I wouldn’t be able to cope after I reached home from work but he said that my mom’s reaction is that I should be fine. To that, I felt disappointed but I should have expected it I guess. Even though she kept saying that she is willing to help but talk is cheap. I told her that I am looking for a new house and she told me that I should move closer to her so that it will be easier for her to come over if I need the help, but come on, how often will she be willing to come over?

So, on Thursday morning, I was all ready for a battle but surprisingly, baby T slept after I nursed her during the morning so I breezed through my morning chores. At night she was not too grumpy, and I even managed to sneak a quick shower before starting her bedtime routine! *fist pump* She refused to drink from the bottle that night though so I nursed her.

On Friday, it wasn’t as easy as Thursday because she woke up around 6plus but still manageable while I whizzed around the house trying to get stuff done. It was Friday evening that I was most amazed by myself. Because it was the weekend, I had to bring baby T’s bedding stuff on top of her regular clothes and whatnot from the centre to wash. And so I carried her, my pump, her stuff, and my bag up in one go! The most difficult part was locking the car and opening the door but I DID IT. For a moment I did feel like my back was going to break though haha.

But I am glad to have survived.

Everyone is always asking me why my mom is not willing to take care of baby T, especially since she is the FIRST grandchild in the family. I really do not know what to say, make up some feeble excuse or tell the truth? The truth is that she rather have her freedom! Who cares about baby T potentially exposed to a lot of germs and very possibly HFMD? Who cares about me having to spend a ridiculous amount on infant care? True, she did come over a few times during my maternity leave in the afternoon when T is traveling (and that is only after telling my auntie that I had intended on getting part time help and my auntie said that my mom should come over so I can save that money for baby T’s other expenses). But everytime I ask her for help, she always guilt trip me and I know that this will come back and haunt me one day too. She says that she doesn’t show favoritism. She said that she spent the most time on me during my childhood to make me feel more loved (only after learning from my friend that I repeatedly told everyone in school that I hate my mom). And she kept saying that I am her daughter and she is willing to do anything for me and I should understand since I have baby T now.

Right and? All these are just talk. And she asks why I keep holding onto old grudges, then proceeds to complain to everyone about what an unfeeling daughter I am for not calling her to show concern.

Ugh. I can’t even. Gonna end this post right here.

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August 17, 2014 at 4:50 PM

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The ‘Use-it-up’ Project (33) – July Edition

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Another month has passed!

Feeling really sad as I will be sending baby T to infant care tomorrow, and officially returning to work on 4 Aug. Have been attending training from Mon-Wed this week and missed her so much already! ;(


1) Crabtree & Evelyn – La Source Exfoliating Body Scrub

why did I buy it? got this from my mom :)

first impressions? very gentle and has a spa scent to it. as I am used to rougher exfoliants, I thought it was too gentle for my liking!

upon finishing? I grew to love this product because it is very gentle but still manages to leave my skin soft and smooth. The scent is also very calming. Will repurchase if I have the chance to step into a Crabtree & Evelyn store.

2) Korres – Almond and Linseed Nourishing Hair Mask (for dry/damaged hair)

why did I buy it? I enjoy a few other Korres products so I thought I could give this a try.

first impressions? it leaves my hair soft and clean. rather easy to wash off as well. hate oily/heavy hair masks that takes forever for me to rinse off!

upon finishing? another product that I enjoyed but the packaging is not ideal. The top spilt due to the water pressure (our shower head is rainforest style) so water kept getting into the packaging and destroyed the mask towards the end.

3) Crabtree & Evelyn  – Rosewater Body Lotion

why did I buy it? got this from a Black Friday sale two years back I think!

first impressions? I was really worried I wouldn’t like this because I used to have a hand lotion in Rosewater by Crabtree & Evelyn as well and I hated that scent! But this thankfully smells much better than the lotion. Not sure why the difference though.

upon finishing? I couldn’t really get all of the product out due to the packaging but it’s the only complain that I have. Am such a sucker for rose-scented products!

4) Missha  – Bling Bling Eye Shadow Stick

why did I buy it? thought this will be good for times when I am in a rush, or a base for smokey eyes.

first impressions? really easy to use, and is a great shimmery neutral color.

upon finishing? I didn’t finish it but did use it quite frequently since it’s the type of color I use in my everyday makeup. Decided to purge this as it is a few years old already and is starting to dry out.

5) Burt’s Bees – Facial Cleansing Towelettes (with white tea extract)

why did I buy it? as I have mentioned before, I just love trying out cleansing wipes! Burt’s Bees seem like a great brand as it is a natural skincare/makeup brand so I decided to give their wipes a go.

first impressions? I was quite worried since I remembered trying other white tea extract products and I didn’t enjoy the smell. But this had a pretty mild scent (but still strong compared to fragrance-free of course) and I really enjoy how it feels against my skin! Seems to cleanse pretty well too.

upon finishing? I find it really comparable to my Simple wipes and wouldn’t mind picking this up again!

6) Bath & Body Works– Anti-bacterial Hand Gel in fresh picked garden herbs

why did I buy it? got this as a gift from a friend.

first impressions? not a scent that I would pick up myself but it’s alright.

upon finishing? Love these anti-bacterial hand gels with their refreshing scents! Have a few lying around from my last B&BW order ;) Using these up quicker than usual since I have a baby at home now.


Also cannot believe that 7 months of 2014 has already passed! I am starting to look forward to Christmas already haha ;)

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July 31, 2014 at 12:21 PM

0-3 months update

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*just finished this post and realised that I rambled on for quite a bit so I am going to insert random photos of baby T to make it appear less wordy* ;)

3 months have passed! *pats self on back for surviving*

I wanted to do an update at 2 months but didn’t manage to find the time to finish the entry so 3 months it is then!


my chubby bunny at 3 months old!


As I blogged before, breastfeeding has really been tough on me. I really did try a lot of things I can, and am still trying my best to increase my supply and am pleased to say that this past week I have been breastfeeding exclusively! *fist pump*

It has been a really long journey. When she was one month old, half of her feeds were formula. After the CL left, my supply dipped slightly because it was so stressful taking care of a baby. At two months, she takes breastmilk during the day, and formula during the night. So that means formula has dropped to about one third of her feeds. And now at 3 months, she is on full breastmilk! For now at least. Honestly, I don’t think I did anything different like pumping more. In fact, I pumped less and gave myself less stress. Anyway, my supply is just nice now. Would be good to have extra but…..fat hope I guess. Anyway, going back to work in 3 weeks time and I am feeling real jittery on how everything is going to work out. Don’t think I will have much time to pump at work zzz.

Noting down her feeds here: two months, she used to be able to finish 120mL easily and even 150mL at night but right now, she seems to start hating the bottle! It is always a struggle to get her to drink from the bottle and I have to get her in the right mood by carrying her around the house then waving the bottle in front of her before sticking it into her mouth at the right moment (usually takes a few tries) fml. So now, I always store breastmilk in 100mL portions to prevent wastage. Again, worrying about how she will do once I start work!


when she’s less than a month old, which explains why she is swaddled up.


At week 6 she weighs in at 5.5kg, above the average percentile. At 14 weeks she is weighing in at 6.78kg, dropping into 95 percentile but still a big baby! Even though her weight gain is slowing down, PD says she is still growing well. T is worried though but I am not because I don’t want her to be overweight in future.


For the first month when the CL was around, she was sleeping a lot so I only did very minimal tummy time and playing. My mom keep nagging at me for letting her do tummy time because she said that baby T is still young so I stopped for a long while. Started again recently because my friends’ babies around the same age can already raise their heads effortlessly while on their tummies. Grrs, regret listening to my mom, AGAIN.

There are two main play things at home, the crib mobile and activity gym. She used to hate both when she was 1month+. For the crib mobile, she hates the sounds that it plays so I would only activate the movement because she seems to enjoy watching it. Afterwards I learnt that putting her further away actually helps as well, not sure why she doesn’t like to be too close to it, timid? These days, I can play the sound along with the movement and it can keep her entertained for about 10-15 minutes! Still doing the distance thing though haha. As for the activity gym, there was a time (1-2months old) when she would end up screaming most of the time when we put her on there wtf. Very stressful because I got to watch out for her fussy cues all the time while she’s on it so I don’t use it much until the last couple of weeks. Now she seems to enjoy it a little bit more, by looking at the toys dangling above her for a longer period of time and if there’s something near her mouth, she will try to taste it. Still not swiping at toys intentionally yet, but has started putting her hands together which is a start!

These couple of days, she also seem to have found control of her tongue and enjoy sticking it out for most part of the day.


day 41, the day after we shaved her!


Amazingly enough, she knows the difference between night and day pretty early on. At 1month plus, she started sleeping for 4-5 hours stretch at night which is a relief for us. And she only wakes for milk, after drinking she will go right back to sleep which is awesome.

At 1-2 months old, sometimes she wakes up 1-2 times a night. We try to get her to sleep by 7pm and it was a torture every night. The internet wasn’t kidding about the witching hours man! There was a period when she would cry the whole house down every evening before sleeping. T and I will take turns to carry her. She cries while being carried and rocked, and cries even louder when you put her down. Those memories make me shudder in fear and I am glad we seem to be past that now.

Recently she has been consistently waking up twice for milk, and the first feed always throws T off (he takes the night shift and I pump) because she refuses to drink much at all! The second feed happens around 5am and he will pass her to me for direct latch and we both sleep till 8am+ while he gets some rest as well. As we always struggle with the feed, we decide that she must not be hungry at that time even though she wakes up! Anyway, trying to drag her bedtime for the past few days and it seems to be working. She is sleeping around 8pm+, then waking up at 2plus am for milk then in the morning and T is not having any problem with that feed anymore! :)

Another thing that I want to quickly note down here is that she used to want us to carry and rock her to sleep all the time, and carry her while she is sleeping as well (especially naptimes during the day). But for the past week, we have been able to put her to sleep by rocking her in the stroller for naps and night time, she will usually go back to sleep on her own. This is a huge relief for me because my back was just about to break from all the carrying, especially since she is so heavy now!


1 month plus, still so small and sleepy all the time in the same pose as the bear on her onesie! 


Even before she hit one month old, she has already started making cooing sounds. CL said she is a very sociable baby, and doesn’t like to be left alone. Very true because everytime we leave her sight, she freaks out. Now she can be alone for a longer period of time (10-20 minutes) but still very much prefer us to entertain her.

She now makes a variety of sounds, with oooo being one of the early ones she made, then ah-ooo, and ah ah ah. This past week she has also started shrieking. When I first heard it I thought she was in pain or something, but when I looked over, she was all smiles and her limbs are relaxed by her side so I am guessing she is just playing with her voice.


my cutie pie

It has been a roller-coaster the past 3 months, both emotionally and physically but I feel that I am getting more adjusted now! Still I envy my friends who have their mothers who happily help them out. My mom comes over when I ask her to, but even then I don’t ask her to come unless it’s really necessary if not I feel like I owe her something. Even if I don’t, I know that she will make me feel that way in future somehow.

I pray that in future, baby T will never hesitate to come to me for anything and I will always be her pillar of support.

ok, off to catch a few hours sleep now before waking up for a pumping session!

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July 14, 2014 at 9:17 PM

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The other day I was just reflecting on my life journey, on what I have and have not accomplished so far since I am in this new chapter right now.


Here’s a summary of the key milestones in my life.

19 years old – my first full time job.

23 years old – graduated from my degree

24 years old – got married

25 years old – got pregnant

26 years old – had a baby

Looking at this makes me feel like I am on fast track in life because it seems like there is something major happening every year since 23! Wonder if that’s good or bad. To be honest, there will be something major happening for the next 3 years as well but not gonna share for now since it hasn’t happened yet! :p

These days I keep thinking that I should have traveled more before I got pregnant but then again, I have already traveled a lot for someone my age. So how much more is more? I have so many places that I want to go to!

For reference sake, this is the top 5 that I really want to go to, not in any order of preference.

1) New Zealand for its beautiful scenery

2) Italy for its architecture and gelato and bags of course ;)

3) Scandinavia for the Northern Lights

4) Africa for its safaris

5) Somewhere with a beautiful beach, like Bora Bora, Fiji, or Mauritius

Probably will try to fulfill one next year end. So looking forward to it already whoohoo!

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July 7, 2014 at 8:39 AM

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The ‘Use-it-up’ Project (32) – June Edition

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Been crazy busy for the past month since taking care of a baby alone is no joke. I used to think that it will be easy peasy, since all babies do is eat sleep poop right? WRONG. There’s burping, playing, rocking her to sleep which takes up a ridiculous amount of time fml but I will not succumb to a yaolan, doing her laundry, while trying to get my hygiene and meals in order wtf.

Have been doing this post in bits and pieces and am glad that at least it isn’t going up too late. Only the second of July today! *pats self*


1) thisworks – in transit, no traces

why did I buy it? always on the lookout to try new makeup wipes since I go through them so quickly!

first impressions? it has a strong sweet scent (on the packaging it says Rosewater and Water Mint Infused pads) and is very wet. Cleanses really well, though I have to use two pieces instead of the usual one piece because the size is smaller than other wipes.

upon finishing? I really did enjoy using this and wouldn’t mind purchasing this again if it goes on sale on ASOS since it is rather pricey at around sgd$41.80.

2) L’Occitane – Pivoine Flora Shower Gel 

why did I buy it? got this in a set of goodies I got in L’Occitane while I was in the states for my honeymoon. That was almost 2 years ago and I finally got around to using it!

first impressions? the smell isn’t something that I would usually go for, and it feels like an average shower gel but slightly thicker.

upon finishing? Don’t think I will repurchase unless I come across a scent that I can’t resist.

3) Simple – Soothing Facial Toner

why did I buy it? since I enjoyed the Simple makeup removing wipes so much, I decided to try more of their products!

first impressions? It has a strong witch hazel scent that threw me off when I first used it, but it is really gentle on my skin. I used it at night after I get out of the shower.

upon finishing? I got used to the smell and thought that it is a good basic toner. I may or may not repurchase this, because I am considering getting a softener instead so that my nighttime skincare can be absorbed even better.

4) Sephora Lipstick

why did I buy it? on a whim I guess, got this so long ago!

first impressions? I remembered enjoying this as it had a fruity scent and applies smoothly. However, since it is a dark color, I didn’t get a chance to use it as much as I would like to.

upon finishing? As you can see, I still have quite a bit left but like I said, I don’t use it much and it has been so long since I had it so I decided to throw it out. Planning to do some more purging in the upcoming months!

5) Lip Scrub

why did I buy it? got this in Tokyo few years back in a shop called Ranking Queen. It was ranked as one of the top sellers so I thought I would give this a try.

first impressions? it is rather thick and not rough at all. after washing it off, I feel like there’s a layer of moisture on my lips. tastes really sweet as well haha.

upon finishing? again I did not finish this product because I am not diligent about using it. But since I have it for so long already, I decided to toss this out. Currently using Fresh’s lip scrub instead :)

6) Aqualabel – White Up EX

why did I buy it? ever since last year, I decided to incorporate serums into my night time skincare routine as I was a quarter of a century old already. So I saw this on sale and thought of giving this a go as Aqualabel is a drugstore version of Shiseido.

first impressions? I like how it absorbs into the skin really quickly.

upon finishing? I am not sure of the whitening effect since much of my skincare is preventive so I guess we shall see if my routine works in the years to come. Overall I did enjoy the product as it was easy to use because of the pump and very lightweight. However, I didn’t manage to finish every mL of it since the pump couldn’t get everything out. Am not too concerned since this is not an expensive product.


Hope to be able to blog more in July!

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July 2, 2014 at 3:28 PM


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