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It’s another 4 days to baby T turning 11 months. Been feeling rather emotional these couple of days because all of a sudden, she seem so big already and just another month, she is officially no longer a baby but a toddler!

I skipped the last update (6-9 months) because it was a crazy period, baby T was hospitalized the first time around Christmas, and then another round in Feb during the week that I had to be away for a business trip ;( Maybe I will write about this some other time because I want to keep this post mainly positive!

So my little sweetheart has suddenly progressed so much! Here are the things I have noticed this past week.

– climb up stairs (she can do this a while back but is much more stable now)

– stack the Fisher Price Brillant Basics Rock a Stack

– clap her hands

– say mum mum when she is hungry. Is this her first word then? She knows how to say mum mum some time ago, but I didn’t think that she knows what it means. These days she will say it when she’s really hungry though! One more interesting word is gei gei, she said that when she was super impatient while waiting for us to get ready to go out. I wonder if she knows that means gai gai? I only heard that once before, so definitely going to pay more attention to her blabbering these days!

– comb her hair. I bought a comb for her recently and she actually know how to use it! I wonder how since I don’t really comb my hair very often hahahaha.

– shake her head when she doesn’t want something

– hold her own milk bottle, not throughout the whole feed though because she gets distracted. but there was once when I left the bottle near her and went to do something else, and she just picked it up and just started drinking while standing up holding on to the coffee table haha

– stand on her own for a few seconds. she started doing this a few weeks back but wasn’t too frequent but this past week she seem to have gotten stronger (and more confident) in standing!


This is all I can think of right now, but I am quite amazed by how much she has grown! Other notable things are that she can understand what I am saying most of the time, like no, pass me things, bye bye to mean that I am going off etc. She is also super sensitive, whenever I raise my voice a little to shout that I mean business, she will burst into tears. T and I find it very amusing, but I am sure it will turn into an annoying habit if she rolls around on the floor hahaha.



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March 10, 2015 at 10:01 PM

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6 months old!

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Baby T is 6 months old now! *throws confetti

I feel much more settled into my role as a mother now. During my last update, I was still hormonal and trying to adjust to this huge change in my life but right now I can’t imagine a life without her already. I do think it’s because she has become much more interactive and clearly shows a preference for me hehe 😉


So much love for this tiny human!


She is taking 130mL milk every ~3.5hrs during the day, and supplementing with formula once a day. There was a few weeks before week 26 when every feed was a nightmare, i.e. took a long time to finish or don’t want to drink at all but thinking back now, it’s probably a combination of teething and fussiness before Wonder Week 26. She is ok now, but gets easily distracted and bored so it is definitely much more difficult to feed her now compared to when she’s younger! I find that letting her hold on to a toy while drinking milk keeps her occupied, if not she will just keep fidgeting around.

Regarding solids, I initially wanted to start only after she reached 6 months old, but with friends/relatives starting their babies on solids and eating loads BEFORE their babies even reached 6 months made me nervous about baby T not being able to catch up #kaisumom So I got her started around 5 months.


Her first solid food was apple, which I steamed and pureed myself. But because she still has that tongue reflex, she can’t eat much at all so I felt like I wasted my effort. Then we started her on cereal which is mixed with EBM so at least there is something familiar to her. But still, the tongue reflex! The thing is, since she goes to school we can only let her try during the weekend since the school they won’t start any babies on solids until they are 6 months old. So, I have given up on pureeing food myself and have succumbed to buying jars from supermarket. I only started seeing a major improvement when she was a week away from being 6 months old when I gave her solids every day since she is home bound due to an episode of HFMD. So far, I have tried apple, butternut squash, carrots, banana. Planning to start on sweet potato and prunes next! And then back to trying making my own baby food again once her appetites goes up.


She is 8.2kg already! She has doubled her birth weight which is a good thing, and still at 90 percentile. Am amazed by how quickly babies grow in the first year of their life. One thing I know for sure, my arms are getting more toned these days from carrying her. 


She is super playful! Especially love it when I sing to her, read rhymes but doesn’t get the concept of stories yet, play peek-a-boo. She loves it when we bring her out, because there’s so many people and things happening all at the same time. I love that she is super generous with her smiles, even to strangers as long as I am carrying her.


I try not to buy too many toys since she doesn’t really spend too much time at home, but even then, I find that she grows sick of the toys so quickly. Sigh! How should I entertain a baby at home?


She still goes to bed around 8pm every night and wakes up once a night. When she first started school, she woke up quite regularly around 4am every night but the past few weeks it has been unstable like between 2-5am. Well, at least it’s still once a night! We have shifted her to the cot after I started work and she adjusted well so yay to that. A few weeks before Wonder week 26, she also slept rather poorly, waking up every few hours. But thankfully after the Wonder Week has passed, she is back to being a sweet sleeping angel again. Phew. Same goes for naps! She napped super poorly, the worst was waking up after ten minutes! Of course she is cranky. One other thing that I wanted to note down here is that we still experience witching hour between 6-8pm. Some days are better than others, but today was especially bad. Bad = won’t stop crying unless someone is carrying her ._.


She doesn’t really blabber too much when she’s busy playing, only when she’s bored or sleepy. Like, before she sleeps especially for naps, she will go bah bah bah bah bah before nodding off haha. She now knows how to make ‘papapa’ sounds so T is really excited even though she doesn’t mean it. But she makes Mama sounds quite distinctively, still I am unsure if she knows what that means. One other significant thing that I want to record down is that when I ask her to say bye to her teachers, she will go ‘En’ or ‘Ey’. Most of the times anyway.

Motor Skills

She learnt to crawl one week before she turned 6 months! I think getting the playmat really helped because it is easy for her to move around. However, she can’t really sit up right but definitely getting better these days at 6.5 months. About a week back, she was able to go from sitting position to tummy position, and right now she is trying to do tummy to sitting. Sometimes she succeed and sometimes she don’t but it is something that I keep seeing her do.


She is also learning how to hold her cup! So cute.


She has HFMD during my birthday week, so that really sucks. I spent the whole week at home together with her and the first day was really heart breaking because she had fever and even vomiting 😦 Am glad that this is over already.

Also brought her to baby spa for the first time!


She was a little scared, especially when strangers touched her but I do think she will enjoy it if she goes again. But it is ridiculously expensive though, so I will probably just bring her to the pool.

That is all for now, and I am looking forward to creating more memories as a family. XOXO

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November 1, 2014 at 9:13 PM

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My Breastfeeding Journey

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With breastfeeding touted as the best way (so to me, it’s the only way) to go these days, I have always known that I wanted to breastfeed even before I was pregnant. I read up quite a bit, though I wasn’t obsessed because I was quite optimistic that my breasts will not fail me.

After having the baby for almost 4 weeks now, I can say that my breastfeeding journey has not been the way I had expected at all and definitely not easy. I mean, I read like a million times ‘it’s going to be difficult in the beginning’ but it just didn’t register in my brain and I got the shock of my life when I finally understand how difficult it was going to be.

Let’s start from the beginning.

For the first two days of baby T’s life, I was still feeling smug because she was sleeping really well and I was ‘feeding on demand’. Well, now I know it’s my naive thinking. Nobody told me that babies ‘wake up’ on their third day. So for her third day, which is also the day I get to go home (and finally shower!), I have a  hungry baby who was crying non-stop while T was trying to get me discharged. Adding to that, PD who visited us in the morning told us that she lost weight (~200g) and asked us to supplement with formula. It was only a couple weeks later that I learnt that breastfed babies typically lose about 10% of their weight in the first week of birth pffft.

Anyway, can you even imagine how stressful I was that afternoon!

I had her on the breast for 90% of the time for the 3 hours in the hospital, and dreading going home since there’s no nurse to look for then. I literally begged for the nurses to send in a lactation consultant before I leave. I was expecting the same lady I had seen for the past couple of days but a different one came. She was super friendly and helped me with massaging my breast. I also raised my concerns about the PD wanting me to supplement with formula, and she didn’t insist that I should persevere with exclusively breastfeeding (which is what the previous LC did) and asked me to make the decision that will be best for me and the baby’s health and mental state when the time comes. And should I need to supplement, I should use a cup/baby spoon for feeding instead of bottle to avoid nipple confusion. This made me feel much less guilty about getting formula from hospital eventually.

Well, the silver lining for that afternoon is that at least she didn’t cry on the short car ride home.

We met the confinement lady at our house and my mom and sis came too and you guessed it, the baby started crying again soon after we reached home. No matter how much I have her on the breasts, she just doesn’t seem to be satisfied. I finally succumbed to feeding her with 20ml of formula at night as I couldn’t stand the feeling of her being hungry and she gobbled it up.

Looking at her greedily drinking up the milk made me teared because it made me feel like I starved her for too long! What kind of mother am I to make my child starve?

However, I was determined not to give up. I thought to myself, my milk supply will certainly be up by next week!

I tried latching on as much as I can, I finished every single dish the confinement nanny cooked for me, I drank red dates tea like crazy, I try as much as possible to pump after every feeding AND slot in a power pumping session a day but my milk supply still hasn’t caught up with her growing needs.

Since then I have been trying my best to feed her as much as I can and supplement with formula if she still seems really hungry. Some days, I feel good about this decision I have made because it certainly made everyone’s lives easier and happier of course. Other days, I cry uncontrollably, not being able to understand why I can’t be like those legendary 牛 (literally translated as milk cow). 

These days, I have more good days than bad. Instead of being depressed over the fact that I don’t have enough milk for her, I thank God that she is eating well and does not suffer from nipple confusion, and happily drinks both formula and breastmilk. I am also happy to report that her intake of breastmilk is more than formula.

Just the breastfeeding part alone has been quite a ride so far, and I still have so much to learn!

I need to keep in mind that there is no perfect parent and what’s most important is that I love her with all my heart!


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May 7, 2014 at 4:24 PM

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